FOR the last 30 years Beverley Gilmour has gone to bed terrified every night, fearing she won’t wake up.
The mum-of-three claims she has experienced thousands of out-of-body episodes, that feel like she “dies”, several times each month.

Beverley says she didn’t know she was dying until she met her dead relatives and it dawned on herCredit: Beverley Gilmour
She lived a normal, active life, pursuing a career as a children’s author when suddenly, in 1987, she said she “died” in her sleep.
The 52-year-old, from St Annes in Lancashire, suffers from what she calls “chronic near death experiences”.
It comes after doctors in Canada recorded brain activity in a patient for 10 minutes after they were pronounced clinically dead.
Brain waves, like those we see in deep sleep, continued even after the patient’s pulse disappeared and their pupils were found to be un-reactive – both signs of clinical death.
During her out-of-body experiences, Beverley said she looks back at her own body lying on her bed as she drifts towards a light.
And she claims her heart stops beating and her brain stops functioning.
But, she said she has no idea how long the episodes last.
Beverley said she is “brought back to life” when she feels a burst of electricity running down her spine, into her heart and jolting it into action.
She described the sensation as feeling as though she’s being “plugged in”.
But the reason for her near death experiences, which she calls “actual death experiences”, has left doctors baffled.
She told The Sun Online: “It has been a very traumatic journey. There was absolutely no reason for them to begin.
“I have spent the last 30 years terrified. I didn’t know what they were.
“I knew I was dying because I encountered my father through the light.
“I have only met him three times over the years but I saw him at the very beginning and he died in 1982, so I knew.
“I came back and I was like ‘Oh my God, I died’.
“I have met Jesus, he is a spiritual guide. I have met my nan, I have met the late Walt Disney.”

Beverley, pictured with son Oliver, said her children helped keep her strong during the first years she had the experiencesCredit: digitalpictures-sm@thesun.co.uk
Beverley explained that when she has an episode she is aware it’s happening.
She claims she can feel her body shutting down and her spirit leaving her body to be dragged up “towards a light”.
She said: “It only happens when I am lying down and I am ready to go to bed.
I have spent the last 30 years terrified. I didn’t know what they were.
Beverley Gilmour
“The first thing I become aware of is a very sensational wave inside my head, it is not slight drift and it just goes deeper and deeper.
“I sense my heartbeat slowing down and then my throat tightens.
“I am completely aware this is happening and I can actually see the room but I know my eyes are closed.”
It’s then that Beverley can feel her brain shutting down, a feeling she describes as like being under water.
She added: “Then I realise I can move from one step to another and I can look back and see my body underneath me.
“I am drifting towards the light and I feel so peaceful, there is so much love. It is an amazing feeling.”
After coming round, Beverley said it can take days for her to recover and she suffers from headaches, light sensitivity and aches and pains.

Before the experiences started, Beverley lived a full life and was an aspiring children’s authorCredit: Beverley Gilmour

Beverley explained the moment she wakes up from dying as like “being plugged in”Credit: Beverley GilmourShe said: “I know I am drifting down and then I have this sensation that I have come back into my body but I am not conscious yet.
“It is like plugging a plug into a socket.
“I feel like I have hit a brick wall, then the next thing I am aware of is a massive electric ball of energy, it rushes down the back of my spine and hits my heart and I feel myself jolt. That is how I come back.
“The longer I take to recover, I am assuming the longer I have died for.
“If it takes just a few hours then I don’t think I have been out that long but sometimes it can take two or three days.”
I have met Jesus, he is a spiritual guide. I have met my nan, I have met the late Walt Disney
Beverley Gilmour
Beverley explained how, in the early years, she never knew if she was going to wake up.
But now, she has come to accept that she has these experiences, despite the impact they have on her life.
She said: “I would go and say goodnight to the kids [when they first happened] and I would look at them sleeping and I would wonder ‘if I have one tonight will I come back for you?’.
“That was a terrible, terrible feeling. To a degree it is still like that, but I have more trust now.”
Son, Oliver Lee, gave up chasing his career as a screen writer to become his mum’s full-time carer.
The 27-year-old said: “You eventually become desensitised.
“When she comes back and then she goes again it is very frightening because you don’t know what is happening.
“I have never witnessed anyone having a seizure but when she comes back it is similar to that and you would have to help restrain her or calm her down.
“But after a few occasions it kind of becomes the norm.
“Because there isn’t a cure for it the only alternative you are left with is to try and make her life as comfortable as possible.”
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